Its the beginning of a new year and inevitably you have to sit back and contemplate your life so far,as you set about making your goals resolutions for the year.I was taken back to the year 2010 where nothing seemed to be working out not emotioally or financially,I was jobless and really struggling,I had just lost someone close to me and the relationship I was in was just bad in every sense of the word.So i looked for ways to escape my miserable existence which was mostly alcohol.
One of the things I used to do to escape my miserable existence at home was to go hang out in my pals house.He had this laptop,a toshiba I think it was and at the time a laptop to me was like a range rover sport is now,something that is so far in the horizon that you dont even think of ever acquiring it,you just admire it from afar.So i'd go to his house and he would put on a movie for me...,movies were luxuries at the time,its like when you dont have something that you really want,when you get it you maximise it to the max.Anyway he'd put on a movie and i'd bum in his house the whole weekend.
He also had this huge collection of fantastic music on his laptop that he'd gotten via lime wire,so i'd go with a cd and copy a bit of it but a cd only holds 17 songs so i didnt get much from him.Anyway he didnt last long in my life,he left my life as quickly as he walked into.And the only sign he left that he was in my life was the 34 songs i managed to get from him.But i always remember how much i envied him for his huge music collection,his laptop and his access to movies.
Fast forward to 2012,I fimally have all those things that I admired from afar,I know it doesnt seem like much i guess you have to lack something to appreciate it when you finally get it to realise that a dream/wish has been finally been fulfilled.I should have had bigger wishes,who knows where i'd be now.
I guess my biggest resolve this year is to dream bigger,believe more and embrace life especially the good times.
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